Monday, April 8, 2013

I wouldn't change anything

There were those questions which I received: If you could change anything about your life,what would you change?
Well,my answer is simple: I wouldn't change anything... I was born in a middle-class family by my thinking tough many people say that we are poor. But we aren't poor. As long as we have to eat and we have a roof we are not poor. Plus:we can afford a TV and internet,last generation smartphones. Being born in a family that many call poor I reallg learned what poor means,seeing poor people begging for their bread thaught me that I am rich. But they may even be richer than me,as I still judge,but they don't. I still get mad easily,they don't. I have a roof,they have the whole sky. I have money they have love...
But not only the money problems could be changed. My love problems I wouldn't change also... I liked girls... A lot of girls. But time heals all doesn't it? They weren't the best in the crowd,but they were the ones I liked. Until something happened. Most of the time they uncovered their true faces,which are disgusting. But these experiences helped me to understand that not all the thinks that fly are good to eat.
The school which I attended taught me that life is unfair. My teachers were not at all fair with me... Yes,I still was the best in my class. Speaking of which:my class was a disaster. I was surrounded by idiots. I learned to be calm by listening to their nonsenses...
I did ten years of karate... By the time I reached second year I didn't like it,but my mother was working hard to keep us at the courses,and I didn't want to upset her. I now understand that those years helped me,not to be a good fighter,but to be a good person. I was taught that only in  last case should I punch,because the world is full of idiots and the ones I meet aren't the only ones... 
I always thought "what are the stories behind these beggars?". After all they weren't born on the streets. I am sure that they have stories full of emotion. I always wandered and wanted to ask,but I was just too scared to do this...
The world is blind. We can't see the true nature of things. I always thought that blind people are actually the ones who see. They don't look at the appearance of things,they look inside them. But I myself I couldn't resist to stay blind. Why? Simply,because I like to write. I write books and poems. And even tough I could still write some way or another,I just feel like I would lose something important from my life. I could be deaf tough...
I always said that when I will meet a blind girl I will treat her like if I was blind too. I would put a strap on my eyes,or a piece of cloth,so I can't judge by the outside looks...


But why am I saying you all of this? Because a famous movie once told : "The raised hand which won't tell a story won't get change!". Every time you see a beggar,don't treat him with despise. Think of it,you might have been in his place...

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Sleepy

My dear journal... Should I start like this? Neah... Hello,bloggers!... Already used...

Anyway at us is like 12:14 AM and I am very sleepy! This is the first post from my droid... Just as an annoucement.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Hallucination or A Face Copy? Part II

I can't believe I am here again. After all,I thought nobody is interested in this blog. But then I found out that this blog is just like my little journal. I don't know why am I here again! But today was a crazy day. Do you remember the girl I talked about? Today I was at the store. My brother was looking for some books. Well... Nothing new. At least for now. I go to get some water. When I returned I helped him look for books. When I looked up,I saw her.She was next to me for a second. She was so beautiful. I can't say if she was or not the girl I met at the contest but from what I remember she looked the same. I just stood there,trying to see her face,trying not to make it too obvious. After a while I asked my brother how should I deal with it. Should I go and talk to her? He said NO. She was with some friends. But I had a chance. When she was alone at the book rafts. I should have talked to her,but I was shy. Now I regret that decision! And I learned that if you have the chance,go talk with her! Now I regret my decision of not talking to her. This year we will have contests again. I hope to see her there. I only know her name. Maybe this time I will be more lucky!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

The Power of Boredom

Hey there,bloggers! Wanted to talk with you about boredom. Why? Because I am bored. And as this blog is about normal problems, normal things and not only, this is about YOU
Well,yeah, boring isn't fun! And as I like PC gaming my first thought was to go to PC... Well,not any game could make me exit this state. And I know that sometimes when I sit there and think and think and think again and again. When I sit down and think I decide to do something. I change my mind. I get something off my heart. But the boredom, it's still there. And so I tell, my boring writing may not make a good impression, but my writing shows my thinking and feelings. And right now I am bored.




What about you? What do you wanna hear next? A love story? A review for a game? Or something else? Tell me! And please don't forget to like and share. I need more viewers.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Hallucination or A Face Copy?

I remember that I was at a contest like five months ago. There,was peace and quiet,but suddenly,she appeared: a face that I will not forget soon! And now you are certainly going to ask me : WHY? Well, because I seemed attracted to her... And not only. My ration said me that she wasn't that pretty but something else was driving me there. So, after a moment, I went to my place and I saw her there, just behind me. Why? What was this? When they put us on our places, following by name, she was still there. Right behind me. After some thinking and trying to convince myself that she has nothing special, with no results ,of course, I started thinking: "So" I said to me "let's talk to her". I wanted to know what was attracting me so bad to her. Was her face? Her voice? Her laugh? I don't know, but I know that we had some good times in there. Now, after we put questions about ourselves , and we known each other better, the supervisors started the contest( let's call it exam). Well,not right now. He didn't have the questions at him, so we made a good laugh again. After another lot of questions(me and her) she said me that she was on evening at "work" "college" "high school" (let's keep anonymity), and this was bad because I am in the morning. But hey, nothing bad. I asked her name... She said me. And after the supervisor went from here and there and we had a laugh again, the contest began. I didn't know how to turn around to see her face again, because I felt too attracted to her, but hey, let's focus on the contest. Well, I wasn't able to focus that much on the contest. But anyway... After the contest finished, I asked her "ID" "facebook" "number" but she denied, telling me that she is too busy. Now, I know that I thought about her a lot and I still can't get her face and her name out of my mind. Why? Simply: after the contest and after the weekend, on Monday, I was on the tram when I saw her: a face that I was familiar with! A deja-vu? I don't think so! It was the exact same face, but she didn't got in the tram. She was with another girl. I tried to make her look at me with no luck. The second day I got down at the same station as she did. Guess what: she got onto the tram. Funny,isn't it? But still,she couldn't be her, as she was in the evening shift.(I see this girl in the mornings). Well,it isn't all! After some months when I delected my mind with her as I didn't see the one on the morning shift or the contest girl, now 4 days ago, on the train , a girl got in it. She couldn't be the same girl which was on the tram or the girl which was at the contest,right? Hah,probably, but, with my brother there and a friend I made, I couldn't go and talk to her and leave them two there waiting. So I looked at her and she looked at me and we just looked at each other. She was right there, behind my brother and in front of me(after my brother's seat, I was in front of my brother) and I could see her in the cracking of the two seats. Weird,huh? As she had the same face as the other two ones. But the road was to a not so known place and she got up from another town(or mini-city) as I live in The Capital. So my mind said that she couldn't be her,but I wanted to believe that she was her. Today on the tram, I again saw the morning one and she got up in the tram. But as there was a short distance from where I had to get down, I didn't really have the time or courage to talk to her. After three months and more than twenty days, I saw her again. There is something with this face, as I feel so attracted to it ,but I don't know what. What should I do? Should I try to speak to her? How, as I can get late to where I have to go. Should I try to get up earlier to wait her in the tram station? What do you think? And did this also happen to you? I still don't know what makes me feel so attracted to her. I am not paranoiac and I know this! But this is a common face or what? This is a weird world as I see! The face is what attracts me,but why? Is my instinct that tells me that...

Friday, June 1, 2012

Word Before

Hi there,reader! I am a normal man with normal problems and normal think. But, I am brave! Brave for what you ask? Well... Brave to create my own blog! Here we will discuss matters from any domains. If you want to stay with me in this fantastic journey,so be it! I am here for you! And something about me: Bala Ananta is a pseudonym. It means Young Infinite. Well, why infinite, you ask? Because:

1) I shall pass, but my words shall remain infinite.
2)I want to keep this blog at infinite.

Now of course I am not going to tell you my real name or any information about me. All you will get is this: my birth day is 3 and my birth month is February, but the year isn't the real one.

See you on my blog, right?